How do I recover my confidence after a harsh writing group?

Question

Having majored in writing in my undergraduate studies, I spent lots of time getting critiques from my fellow students, some of whom are now published and many of whom were excellent writers. The group dynamics of some of my classes could get quite harsh. From the perspective of learning, the harshness was a positive. From the perspective of wanting anyone to ever look at my fiction again, the harshness was completely negative. It has hampered my love of writing for many years.

I'd like to get back into writing fiction again, but my confidence is completely shattered. Whenever I get an idea for a story I find myself second guessing it. How can I recover my confidence?

Answer 1

Two tips:

You are not your story. Your story may really, really suck. However, that doesn't mean that you're a bad writer or that you'll never write anything worth reading. It just means that this particular story needs work. If you're ever going to have a measure of success as a writer, you have to learn to disassociate your self-esteem from negative feedback you get about any particular story.

Which leads to:

Allow your writing to suck. Guess what? Pretty much everyone's first drafts suck. Second drafts, too. You may have to go through ten drafts to get to the one that works. You may also have to go through ten terrible short story ideas before you start writing the one that's going to be great. Don't sweat the fact that what you're doing right now isn't as beautiful and perfect as you want it to be--you can come back later and make it better, and if you don't have those skills right now, you can work on something else and come back when you have the perspective and the experience to write your story the way you've always imagined it.

Answer 2

NaNoWriMo

Tens of thousands of lunatics collectively deciding to write an entire novel apiece in 30 days.

My hang-ups came from a different place, but I had the same apprehensions as you. I'm a coder; in the computer world, there is a right way and a wrong way to write something, and I kept over-analyzing my writing looking for an objective measure of elegance or perfection that doesn't exist.

When I participated in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) for the first time, the quantity-not-quality focus did wonders for me. Not only did the volume of my writing increase, but (surprisingly) so did the quality, because I was forced not to over-analyze. After all, as long as you make your word count during NaNoWriMo, you can always edit out the garbage in December. ;)

It's probably a little late to try for 50,000 words this November, but small groups or individuals often do off-season NaNoWriMos in other months, and each summer there is NaNoScripMo (like NaNoWriMo but for plays/screenplays).

You can also use the same mentality outside of NaNoWriMo: take a period of a few weeks and focus solely on ridiculous word count goals, to the exclusion of all else. See how it changes your perspective.

Answer 3

Meditate over these thoughts:

1. Rome wasn't built in a day. The first version of your story sucks? So what? Just improve it. Some people can write perfect prose first time, some have to fight for every word. All of them can get rich/famous/happy.

2. He who complains cares. If they didn't bother, why would they take the time to give you lengthy and useful feedback? If I thought you're a total XXXXXX, I'd just say "Oh, forget it. You'll never make it". But when I say "Don't do this, try that," there is still hope.

3. Who says you have to publish your work? If you want to have fun writing, write for yourself! Ignore grammar, typos, whatever you want. Have fun. if you ever come across a story that is worth publishing, then you can start worrying about making it as great as it can get. But that doesn't mean you have to live in misery all the rest of the time.

4. Perfection is a nice goal. It's simple, easy to make out, shiny. And unattainable. You want to start with perfect results? How boring ... no way to improve, try out new things. Feel lucky that you have so many things to improve! Other people don't get published and they don't know what they could do better.

Answer 4

Only thing to do is get back on the horse. You're going to get harsh critiques, and some times they're not going to be justified, and sometimes they are. Learn from the ones that are, ignore the ones that aren't and don't let anyone keep you from doing something you like.

Answer 5

You may want to take a look at this:
30 authors whose works were repeatedly and sometimes rudely rejected by publishers

The first two names on the list are Stephen King and William Golding, both of whom are incredibly respected and talented authors. George Orwell is also amongst it.

The point is, many talented writers experience rejection and criticism. It probably goes a long way to making them great. The only tragedy in receiving a bad response is if you don't act on it. Look at the harsh comments as sure-fire ways to improve, especially if they come from extremely talented writers. They have doubtlessly been there before.

Answer 6

Besides the general advice on writing (like JSBᾶngs said, "You are not your story" and "Allow your writing to suck"), I think in your case this point is also relevant:

You are not what your former and now very successful peers thought of you/r work: Just because they are very successful now, does not mean that their feedback was right. It surely was not good feedback, because it did not improve your current and future work. Feedback should be specific for the current work and not judge the worth of the person as a writer. They might be successful writers (now), but they did not know how to give good feedback (then), and it should be of no relevance to you. Write for yourself (and your audience), and not for the ghosts of your past, no matter how bright they shine in their current success on a path you haven't taken (yet).

Answer 7

As an author you have to be able to tell when your work sucks. It's a crucial skill that also leads to knowing when your work is actually good. Everybody writes crap at some point, usually on the first draft, so you have to know in advance when it needs revision and when it is ready for peer review.

If you want your confidence back, look back over the negative criticism with an objective mind and determine:

1. Was the criticism valid?
2. Can I improve in the validly criticized areas?

If you answer yes to #2 then just move on and keep practicing to get better. People who criticize story ideas have no valid place in a peer review group, so the valid criticism was targeted at your technical abilities, not your creativity. When you go to write, don't worry about the technical side. Just let the thoughts flow. Worry about the technical criticisms during the revisions.

Answer 8

If in doubt: write. If in fear: write. Whatever you are: write. If I didn't keep telling myself this I wouldn't have written anything and now my book is being published and it still feels like a fluke. I'm sure you're absolutely brilliant, just gotta let yourself go.

Answer 9

First, limit the number of people you solicit for feedback. The best writing in the world will still get criticism. When you ask someone to read your work and critique it, you'll get back a critique. Your reader is reading for the primary reason to hunt up something "wrong" with your writing.

Ask that reviewers limit their comments to one facet of your writing each time. You can then focus on that one thing and not be overwhelmed.

And hang in there. You will become a better writer if you keep writing.

Answer 10

Yes, a harsh review, critique &etc. can be really hard on your confidence.

But it seems often to be just a confirmation of our worst fears, the story (we) are no good. Something that helped me, a lot, was to write my own version of the worst review ever.

It can be harsh, snarky, sarcastic, but it has to be true. Then write a response, if you want.

It makes me feel more confident.